kaareena

Heightening fears peak at the trough. Entranced followers are consumed by sorrow as they watch their futures burning brightly, as shadows darken the faces of the fallen. Homes that took far too long to build, and even longer to make memories in, come crashing hard to the ground. Everything is broken. The clocktower in the center of the town had lost its tick, going unnoticed as people are running around mad, hurriedly searching for their families. I did this. I really did this… "Mother! Mother! Please come back!" Oh, how the cries of innocent children make me feel guilty. I never meant to cause harm to them too. Wasn’t one enough? Aren’t I enough? Oh, what people do following a break at the heart… And the many other insane things they do for love. Infatuation and selfishness, disrespecting anyone in my path. I set my world ablaze via feelings of anguish. I have given my soul, and watched stone faced as it fell, rejected. Your keen words have blinded me. Really, I should be deafened. The world is closing in suddenly, and all I can see is you standing in between muddled colors of reds and purples swirling together, but never mixing. I reach out to you and try to speak, but my words are lost. I lay still, buried beneath every ghost town and forgotten city that has ever existed. I’m better than this… right? My eyes search yours, trying to say everything at once, when a tear attempts an escape out of its confines, threatening to expose my deepest thoughts. With my hand on your neck I pull you closer as I move in towards you, begging you silently not to see me in this light. Our lips brush and lock tentatively, ratifying our feelings with an everlasting seal of emptiness. The tear slips by my security and falls down my pale, freckled face. It pauses for a moment, stalling before its harsh demise at the end of its path down my soft cheek. You pull away gently, easily wiping away the drop containing all of my feelings before it has a chance to unite with the steaming ground below us. You watch as my mouth parts to speak, before eventually closing. Repeating the motion as I try to speak, but quickly retracting as I was unsure if it was too soon to love somebody this quickly… and too soon to feel this hurt. You badger me about it for a moment but give up knowing the fight is lost, knowing I am unable to declare my thoughts. Looking around, we assess our surroundings of the charred wood and steel that once made a quaint home. I vaguely wonder if the ghost of happiness still lives within the shattered walls and windows that have fallen. You lean in close as you always do, and whisper softly so only my heart can hear. "My love?" "Yes?" Said so absently, unable to shake the stoic feeling of inner torture, and too frozen to express my awareness in the midst of the scalding heat. A whisper so quiet, but just loud enough to make my heart stop its repetitive, continuous task of pumping blood. "I love you. I always will.” I could hear his sadness within the small phrase, wishing I was not looking at downturned lips. My breathing comes to a sudden halt and I lean in to feel his love once more. It was only until I was lost in kissing him passionately that I noticed the oxygen was no longer flowing to my brain. I pause dizzyingly, barely long enough to respond sincerely, "I know. I love you too." I was so scared, and so afraid. I knew you could hear it in my voice, and feel it through the language of my body, knowing it did not affect you in the slightest. A riot has begun as the unharmed remaining people band together to fight the evil in their town, and take back control of their lives. The fire was excruciatingly hot. Everywhere you look, it is spewing in every direction as far as the eye can see. Yet, there is something so very beautiful about it. Townsfolk are running about, screaming that the gears in the clock have not been damaged. They look on in awe as it chimes slowly, in fear of being stopped once again. It is dark outside now… the sun seemingly hiding from the disaster unfolding. My heart is pounding harder than ever as the rain begins to soothe the town and mend the steaming debris. I am stuck in the City of Lost Words. Alone inside my mind with no one to hear me. I know you cannot stay here, but the object of importance in my life has always been you.

that feeling when you’re walking on clouds floating on smiles, then falling for miles hard stops on the ground all worlds stop spinning around sinking slowly feeling lonely as time stands still wondering if my heart will ever be fully okay again

stay and sing to me forever call the stars down wrap me in a soft cocoon it is hard so hard to feel and not feel you . do you ever still capture my voice saved for when the storms come or has shelter gone like the sparks gone like the nights when you'd ask me to stay